I know…I know. I can feel all the meat lovers celebration. But I’m back to being a vegetarian…relax haha. I was a vegetarian for 7 years before I went vegan for one. I decided to give up being a vegan until the December of 2018. The reasons why I gave it up was because I felt like a fraud, unhealthy, and very very weak.

  1. I felt like a fraud.

I turned vegan out of a love and hate relationship with eggs and cheese. I was vegetarian for 7 years and you can only imagine how it felt to rely so much on eggs and cheese for certain proteins. I felt like my body was in a rut and I needed to cut back on all the unhealthy stuff that contained eggs and cheese.

Vegan was the perfect excuse and it was something I wanted like to try out. Being the person that I am, I really stuck it out till the end. But what I learned in the process of being a vegan is that veganism is truly a lifestyle. I ate honey thinking it was alright but it wasn’t. I didn’t double, triple check the products I use from skincare to shampoo.

It’s hard and I think if I truly wanted it, I wouldn’t make excuses. So I realized after I quit veganism, the term best to describe what I was doing was following a plant based diet whereas, veganism is a way to support animals. I love animals! I just feel like veganism is not the way for me to go about it, which I will explain!

2. I felt very unhealthy and weak.

I don’t have the kind of money to afford it so when I go out to eat, I don’t eat enough. NYC gets me up and running around so eating properly wasn’t on the top of my list, never-mind making sure it’s vegan.

So I wasn’t consuming enough on a day to day and I lost 8-9 pounds. It’s great and all but it’s gotten to a point where I would eat a lot and I just won’t gain weight or can’t get full. I really think it’s my fault for not eating right, but I was really consumed with work and stress.

My periods started to hurt like crazy. It never hurt this bad especially as a vegetarian. It was that week I decided to be Christian, I had this taunting thought that I should go back to being a vegetarian. In no particular reason, but that’s what I decided to do. I went back and I no longer have bad periods, I workout, and I take care of myself.


But here’s the thing, I don’t think not being a vegan means I have no right to support animal rights. It’s just something that didn’t work out for me as of right now and I would consider changing it when I have better circumstances. All in all, I really am glad I made this decision, it really helped me and I feel better knowing that I am not being half-hearted when joining a community of vegans who give their all to its lifestyle.

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